Smile and Hide

Hi. 

I don't know how to say it. 

But sometimes when I thinking about it. 

I really feel like a clown. 

Haha... 

Yes, joke on me. 

Laugh at me for being a clown for months. 

I still crying often. 

But I didn't show it to anyone at all. 

While people around me or even before pick up a call, I will wipe my tears. 

I will talk and smile like I never cried before. 

Not moving on? 

It is not about moving on or not moving on. 

But to tell the truth, it is still painful for me. 

I do forgive. 

But forget things, that's hard. 

I think anyone who ever been in the same thing, they will say the same. 

It is painful. Really painful. 

I need time. 

And I hope time will heal me.