Sad or Desperation?
Hello everyone. As when I write this tonight, I'm actually not feeling good. I'm sad, and been through this for quite sometimes. Maybe quite desperate too. Can't really talk why I feel this way. Because this is something that I can't fix by my self. Don't ask how many times I cried. I cried and cried and cried. At first it still ok. Then day change into weeks. Weeks change into months. Months change into years. I start feeling uneasy. People asked, I just brush out their question. Act like, I'm okay with it. I handle it good. I don't have any problem with it. In reality. I feel like I'm really sad and disappointed. Disappointed with my self. What's wrong with me??? Maybe I'm not good? am I just a failure? Everyone had it easy. All of my friend have it already. Just me. it is just me. Must be something wrong with me. That's why it is ...